Thank you AtreyuFreak,
It's nice that you know what I'm talking about. I am working in DBT to overcome my past experiences and learn proper ways to live & form new relationships.
My levels of trust swing high and low pretty fast, which confuses me. When I highly trust, I open up 100% to him. Something happens (I don't recall what), and I feel empty inside. Very strange, I just hate it! One of those days for me now.