Like most things that go on with you in say, the last month? What about, can you remember when you were a kid, a teenager? I mean like remember a lot of random but specific things that you did or that happened to you and not just bad things or just really good things, but just random things like "remember that time we rented Look Who's Talking and ate that gross pizza?" kind of stuff?

I have found (and me and my doc have talked about this a lot) that I have a great deal of difficulty remembering fairly recent things, ESPECIALLY if they were upsetting and my past is quite honestly nearly non-rememberable. (Yes I made that word up.) I cannot remember 2nd grade or 8th grade or anything before, between or after that. I know I graduated from HS, but I don't even remember that event. I know it happened, but I'll be damned if I can remember much of it. The not remembering my childhood is especially upsetting for me as I had a brother who committed suicide when I was 18 and I can not remember him!!! The only things I can remember are the many, many, many traumatic things that happened to me, and even with those, its more of a vague thing, like I can remember that when I was 5 my step dad broke my finger or when I was in the 7th grade my mom hit my face so hard that my tooth cut a hole through my bottom lip. But I cannot remember DOING anything during those years, I cannot remember playing or having fun or going anywhere.

Anyhow, is anyone else like this? Do you have any idea why I am like this? Or it is just the obvious that I want to block everything from those bad times out? Seems like if that was the case though, I wouldn't remember the bad **** and would only remember the good things. I cannot remember the good things AT ALL!