It sucks that you feel this way, feeling crazy is the worst feeling in the world and I experienced it a few months ago after I crashed from a long hypomanic episode. I was having panic attacks, couldn't sleep, was paranoid, depressed, crying all of the time and basically felt nuts. I couldn't watch TV or listen to music because it was just too much stimulation. The only thing that helped me was taking Ativan and talking to a therapist. This was the first time I ever experienced this and was diagnosed w BPII at that time. You're not alone and you're not crazy...I wish I could say more to help.