austin-t wants me to be less dependent on him. spend more time with 'people my own age'. believe in myself more. blah blah blah.

he went on for an hour. i had things i wanted to talk about, but he started the session off and then wouldn't shut up. eventually, we had 10mins left. he kept getting paged and i knew he wanted to attend to whatever the issue was. he asked me if i had anything to ask/say. i asked him if it was ok to keep seeing him and he seemed confused about where the question came from. so i explained a bit and he said it was ok, and he asked if i wanted to see him weekly or fortnightly. i said weekly and he said he wanted fortnightly, because then i could 'live my life more'.

so the deal is that i get 6 sessions weekly, then 6 fortnightly. who knows after that.

but i'm home now and thinking, "**** this. i dont want to see him anymore anyway, if he thinks im too dependent on him". so i'll be independent, like i was before. before i entered therapy and allowed myself to let someone else help me.

i want to send him an email saying all of this. but he's never said it's ok to email (i have his address, but it was for business related stuff). we have an appt set up next week, but i dont want to waste my time by attending. and i'm definitely not up for a phone call.

but then i think, if i'm quitting then why bother emailing anyway. just send a txt saying thanks for help and that should be all that's required.