I want to tell so much of what I'm feeling now.
But there seems simply to be no way to describe the tempest inside myself I am witnessing.

Some one (a family member) the other day told me that depression is brought on by too much self victimization.

"To much expectation in a world that owes you not too much" as they put it.

So Is that all it comes down to? Depression being some pity party?

My sadness and my constant pitiful self evaluations is nothing but unjustified grumbling?


If so, maybe it is best if I just shut up about my problems, and run the routine silently like everyone else. I'm so tired of being brushed off...I don;t even know why I try.

...just some more sad random postings to match my mood.