I had my first session with couples counseling last night. My husband was actully very calm. Not me, I froze like a stuipd idiot. I am so done with therapy. I don't even want to go back to my own individual therapy. I sent an e-mail telling my T that I didn't want to come back any more. I told my husband that I didn't want to go to couples counseling with him either. I haven't heard back from either of them yet.

I'm just done...I don't want to talk about my feelings. Why can't I just be me and do what I wish would happen...let me make it all happen.

I know I am ranting on and on. I'm the basket case that has no one to turn too and is always a burden on everyone. Even here.

I feel completly gone, dead inside, just wandering around...not really knowing where I am going or what I am doing...I'm so ready to just give up on everything.