Checking myself in sadly isn't an option. I left my husband 3 months ago because he was abusive and if I go to the hospital my daughter will end up with him and the last time she was with him he was making drugs and being really mean to her and neglecting her so I can't risk that. My medical is gone as well so I can't afford a therapist. I didn't realize I was in that place where I needed immediate attention... Thank you for you post, I knew I needed help and needed to stop but I didn't realize it was to the hospital point until now. Thank you for your post, it's opened my eyes now and I know I need to do something to fix this. But what do you do when therapists aren't an option at this time?