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Originally Posted by bloom3
((((((((((deli)))))))))))
austin-t is acting kinda crazy and erratic. maybe he's off his meds.  seriously, i'm sorry he's telling you to go live life more when you are so doing that already. you just got back from japan! how much more living life is there then world traveling, graduating from college, etc. and you are hardly the dependent type. like me, you seem ridiculously independent. can you go back to seeing pdoc regularly if things don't work out with austin-t? maybe that would work better? i'm sorry you're having to deal with this deli.  |
thanks sweetie. i'm glad you see me as independent, at least. pdoc does too, so at least i have a few people on my side
. pdoc is on leave now but yeah, if things don't work out i'll just go back to him and it'll be ok. we've survived 5 years together so far.
the thing is, i know there is a lot of potential with austin-t: probably moreso than with pdoc, just because of their different training and experience. so i'd be sad to let this opportunity go.
but, at the same time, i know what i need to feel safe, and austin-t aint checking any one of those boxes at the moment. i'm not prepared to mess around with someone i don't feel safe with again (had that experience with old-t), so i guess it'll be sad but i would also be proud of myself for terminating if we can't figure this one out. i'm upset at myself for sticking with old-t for as long as i did, and i promised myself i wouldn't do it again. so either way, things will be ok.