I just got a message from a friend who I usually see in our core group when one of our kids has a birthday party or when there is a holiday, etc. She wants to get together tonight. I am basically having a panic attack.

I have never gotten together with anyone from the group one on one. I did help thid friend and her husband find a house when I was working and did their transaction for them, but for some reason I can't bring myself to go to that very house with my kids to get together tonight.

I don't know what to tell her. She knows about my illness and has had her share of issues as well. She is very non threatening and very nice and I could see myself getting close to her, but I just can't bring myself to get over to her house.

I don't want to blow her off, but I don't want to tell her that I just want to stay home tonight.

What do I do?

So this week has been a couple of steps forward and a step back. Slow slow movement.