YOU can't make your husband well. YOU can't get rid of his depression by anything you do - though you can make things worse by not being supportive and not taking care of yourself.
Maybe you should try some counseling for yourself? He's going through hell. He may get better, or he may find that how he is now is the best he's going to be. You have to decide what you want to do. Can you accept him as he is? If not, that does not make you a bad person. Depression is very tough to live with - especially if you have never experienced major depression and therefore do not really understand it.
"To Thine Own Self Be True." Take that to heart. Staying with him out of guilt won't help him or you. If you are not sure, then wait, stop trying to cure or change him and just take care of yourself, accept him as he is. You may be surprised what a difference that makes. Eventually you will know what the right thing to do for you is. Then do it.
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