that would make us lose it if we were not feeling well. right now isn't a time where you want to be understanding of others and those zillion things. right now is a time to focus on saving yourself.......which you are doing!!

what a great connection to make! sorry it comes from such pain but to read this and see that you realise that how you are feeling now is reminiscent of when you were younger vying for your mother's attention just shows how much more understanding you have of the pain inside.

when we can understand the pain better we gain the ability to see its weak spots and are more prepared to battle it.

you've done a great job in venting here AND stopping yourself before you allowed thoughts to run down that negative path.

progress! it might feel like molasses but it is happening with each passing hour. we maintain hope for you. keep things an hour to a time if that is all you can handle right now. you need to keep it simple for the time being as you continue sorting.