It takes time to find the "right" combination of medications. For the past year I've been "re-trying" the list of medications again....as follows:
Geodon - got tics the first time, but it will bring you out of the deeeeeeeeepest depression, and I was desperate to feel better, second time around I went to the hospital 3 nights in a row having seizures.
Wellbutrin- had a headache for a month
Effexor- I think this was the 3rd time for this one, but that's b/c I went effexor to pristique back to effexor after insurance wouldn't pay for pristique
Prozac- this time it actually works.

It's all trial and error, like prozac alone does nothing, but prozac with effexor, seroquel, dexedrine, and klonopin works pretty well. It's only taken 7 years to find the right combination.

Also, I have a hard time calling my doctor as well. I always feel like she's going to be disappointed with me in some way. *and make me go back to the hospital and stop working because my job is too stressful*