((((((((((((((monty)))))))))))))))

i sure sounds BP type pattern. i really think you need to talk to t about this, sweetie. i know fear and embarassment. i've soooooooo been there this last month with t. however, y'all are braver than i am. you can do this.

also, just another thought. i'm still getting caught up on the fact that i think BP would've manifested way before now. however, i don't know enough about it to know. so along that lines of thinking...might it be that you're being heavily influenced by inside right now? might be?

i wish i knew more honey.

love ya more,

kd