Thanks for your support everyone. It is much appreciated. I am starting to realise there is no easy answer. It is not something that will just go away, although I wish it would. It's harder to face things but I hope it will be beneficial in the long run. It has taken me back to the abuse and rape issues with my ex boyfriend. I thought I had dealt with them but maybe I haven't. Things just aren't the same anymore.

Thanks again and hugs to you all.