You are in my thoughts and prayers, for sure. I know it's a tough situation to be in, but like you said, his addiction is his ALONE while your addiction is yours to deal with. By picking up someone elses addiction trying to save them, we are putting our own recovery at stake and it's a trigger for relapsing.

I still think about using everyday (I am an alcoholic, meth/crack addict), but my Higher Power doesn't put more on me than I can handle and I know this, so I take it one day at a time.... Remember what the big book says... We didn't become addicts overnight, so we're not going to get better overnight... so easy does it!

I wish you the best.