Was cleaning out a little room today because we are remodeling our bathroom and came across some pictures of D (my ex-fiance that killed himself in November) and a photo album oh is from when he was little. Looking at the pictures of us, we looked happy (of course, who takes pictures when they are arguing or hurting!), HE looked happy, he broke my heart, why did he have to do it, looking at him just hurts knowing how much he hurt and he didn't reach out and why didn't he?!!? Anyway, it just still makes me so sad.