I'm trying to find a balance between being too dependant on therapy and therapists and cutting all of it off completely. Its really difficult to get into the grey areas with this. At the beginning of the week, I wanted to leave and not go back because I was afraid I was becoming to dependant, by the end of the week I've let myself be dependant, and I find it hard to know if it was too far. In fact I'm finding it really hard to trust my instincts right now. our therapy group is changing in the next few months, funding being one of the factors for the change. There will be three people leaving, staff leaving. A whole new set up to our "group" its all quite overwhelming. I know that its going to be a learning experience and I think it'll be really important for me, especially since I want to cope with endings differently. But right now, in this moment, I'm feeling sad, upset, angry, scared.....

I don't post here often because I'm very worried about who could read this. But Its a friday, I don't have Therapy till Monday and there isn't anywhere else to get this out tonight.