No note and he wasn't the kind to seek treatment. Thank you guys for the support and hugs. It makes me mad, it makes me sad, it makes me cry that I get mad at him, it makes me cry that, on this Earth, in the day to day things, I won't talk to him. I can't call him to tell him what college Tori decided on, can't call him to tell him how Kaity's cardiology appointment went. Things like that. It hurts so much. And not just for those reasons, but it hurts just thinking about how much pain he was in, how sad, how hurt he had to have been.