I feel very sad, and worried, and anxious, and my head aches, and, at the same time, I can't be still and can't concentrate or even read. Also, I want to cut very badly. I need it. Most of the time I just feel like ending it(I won't do it). It's crazy, because I'm restless but at the same time I have no energy at all. I want to sleep and I don't want to sleep. And I just feel like I hate my stupid sweater, like I want to "hurt" it. I also feel like SI'ing badly. And I also am in love, and I miss that person terribly, obsessively, though obviously we're not even acquaintances. I want to scream, but I can't. I'm screaming all the time in my head. I don't know. I'm sorry. I feel like I'm losing it and can't talk about it to anyone. I feel so very lonely. I'm just venting. Don't mind me. I'm sorry.