no problem -- it seems like we're going through much of the same stuff (I'm becoming so anxious about moving back to college for the fall, purely b/c of the food). I've been in a food rut all summer: I eat chicken & salad & sprouted-grain rolls for lunch and dinner, with very little variation from the scheme because when I vary my diet, I tend to overeat. I know that two months I wasn't ready to "treat" myself to an occasional doughnut (I tried, & failed again & again). Maybe when you're recovering from an eating disorder it's not so bad to be in a healthy food rut -- as long as you can start to develop on your "rut" diet, adding new things, so it doesn't become just another way of weilding control. Anytime you need to talk, just PM me; or, my e-mail is jesseryn@hotmail.com. I know how frustrating it is to go through an ED, & how hard it is to accept yourself afterward.

Thanks for your response! Best Wishes.

~Jessie