Thanks to you all. In response to cutting her off, I have deleted my Facebook account, so she can't keep "tabs" on me, and post her negative comments on my wall. I feel better now. My husband deleted his too. It's slightly funny.
I am so glad I finally I finally found a good therapist. Before I had always went to women therapist, and they want to talk about your "feelings" and being "spiritual." Now I have a guy, and he is awesome. He makes me think out what I just said logically, and not how I really felt about it. I think that helps me more than talking about feelings, because I'm always either depressed, slightly not so depressed, anxious, hypomanic, manic, and then depressed again. It's been getting better though because I'm trying to be more mindful, and to look at things logically. Sometimes when I think about things logically, it just makes me so angry. Like the fact that my mother did some serious emotional damage to me all of my life. I just get so enraged, because how could I not know this before? But then I remind myself that life is a continuing process. That I am not going to support my mother's need for control. I am my own person.
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