do I ever. Googley, this is me too. I see T next Tues and the dread is a terrible weight. If I had brakes I'd be putting them on. I just want to feel safe - but I don't.

When I actually see her, it usually gets better; but I think not this time. Even the room isnt safe; this time, she said, she's going to use the Tres Pass

and I gave it to her!!!