"Ultimately, man should not ask what the meaning of his life is, but rather he must recognize that it is he who is asked." ~Viktor Frankl

May I suggest your perspective must change? What do you value? What is important to have as a part of your life? What can you do to make a more meaningful life?

Life is a participatory activity. We make choices. We may choose to bemoan our circumstances, or, we may choose to live more meaningfully.

Good luck.