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I don't feel fear when I get startled by the fire alarm, it is just a physiological response. I am able to relax significantly between the alarm going off, but I still jump each time.
I do feel fear when people come up behind me or something comes at me. I do look around at what is going on and realize that it is not dangerous, and relax afterwords. But both of these leave my arousal level elevated. Certain things can make it worse, make me more sensitive, like talking about my assault in T. It will take me a while to relax afterwords and not feel so raw. During that period of feeling raw I know I am more hyperaware of what is going around me. It is better than when I first was attacked, but nowhere near gone.
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