My name is Vampi and I lost my job after having a nervous breakdown in 1999, and was hospitalized for suicidal tendencies about 5 months later. Up until that time, I had been on one anti-depressant after another, being diagnosed as chronically depressed. After the hospital stay and seeing specialists, I was then diagnosed with bipolar type 2 along with post traumatic stress disorder and anxiety disorder.

Looking back, I think I may have had bipolar disorder since being a child. I stole constantly and was a pathological liar... not to mention the hypersexuality. Then again, that could have just been the consequences of molestation over a period of years.

This past Tuesday, I had my first auditory hallucination. I woke up in a foul mood and it progressed into a fine rage. While sitting at the table, I had thoughts racing through my head when all of a sudden there was such a horribly evil voice in my head just telling me to DO IT, SMASH IT. Needless to say, it scared the crap out of me. Since then, the doc has added Abilify 5mg to my Prozac 40mg and Remeron 45mg. I'm still waiting to have a good nights sleep

Not really sure if this post could trigger anyone, but just in case... thanks