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Originally Posted by ECHOES
Blue, one of my obstacles is that intellectually I reconciled myself to the fact that "My parents did the best they could with what they had." This was the mantra that allowed me to put things aside so I could carry on.
The truth is, that there are many truths. The mantra is true. My experience in my family is true, my siblings very different experiences are also true.
In therapy, it is my time.. for my truth.
I'm sorry you are feeling like you are near something dangerous right now and I hope you feel better soon.  |
Thanks Echoes- That is a mantra that speaks to me as well. And I believe it to be true with all of my heart, but for some reason it isnt connected to my feelings....they did the best they could and I can live that mantra until I feel angry about some specific incident. I would like to be on the other side of these feelings and using that mantra and having it be enough for me, but Im not there yet. Im in a feel/dont feel care/dont care state of mind. One minute I am the mantra, the next minute, I am in the anger. And I cant say it is rage at the moment- its sort of a sad anger if that makes any sense. I want to say so many things to her. Especially about my father.