Service has a way of sucking the life out of one's existence. In your case, it has long bled you. Age and decay render you “out of specifications.” You long to bid Fair Winds and Following Seas to the family issued you and go on into Retirement.

I can't blame you. I have no idea what keeps me going now that I've outlived my usefulness. A quick end would have been preferable to this lingering one.

Speaking only for myself, mine is not to reason why; mine is but to wait on those PCA/PCS orders, which I will inevitably obey When the Time Comes.

Can your pdoc appreciate your background?