Keb, I have to second both the Byz and Rohag. I long ago decided that God was determined I should be here, and that I had better find out what to do with myself while I am. In short, I said, "Fine, YOU and me, lets make a meaning for this wierd little life, then." Since then, the meaning has changed, but there has always been one. Soemtimes I haven't been able to see it for all the interference form my bipolar disorder, but it is there.
At the root of it is, like Rohag, I'll demob when the orders come. Until then, I'll stick it out where I'm posted and see what comes my way. Most of the time, starts out boring, but then it livens up....Huggs dear, and I am so sorry that you feel so drained and alone.