Its not YOUR fault that he's such an *** hole. I really don't want to be the one who says it, but you would be a million times better off without a piece of poo like that in your life. I left my son's father when my son was about 18 months old because I realized I didn't want my son to grow up like his father. It was the best decision I ever made. I was lonely as hell for 3 years. We lived off of ramen noodles and grilled cheeses. BUT I finished college and found my now husband. He treats me like a princess. My ex convinced me that I was a weird, useless piece of **** and sort of made me feel like he's the best thing I could have ever gotten, its like I forgot how to be a person with him. Mind you, this whole time I'm going through SEVERE postpartum depression and he just MAKES FUN OF ME. He would laugh at me when I cried, god it was awful.

My point is that a man cannot be the thing you define your life by. You say you should just let him go and be sad, but you don't seem very happy right now anyway. Maybe you would feel BETTER if he was gone. Imagine how much better you will feel when you don't have someone putting you down all of the time. You are worth more than this and you son deserves to grow up with a happy mommy.

(((aimee)))