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When I am really depressed I usually wish to disappear. I feel like I would be doing my family a great service if I just ceased to exist. Rarely do I wish to die, though sometimes I do. But I often feel so blah that I feel like I am wasting air.
Yesterday I was seriously wasting air. I found that I sort of just sat and stared most of the day. Ug.
I am sorry you are in a bad place, bridgie. I hope things get better for you.
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"School is shortened, discipline relaxed, philosophies, histories, languages dropped, English and spelling gradually gradually neglected, finally almost completely ignored. Life is immediate, the job counts, pleasure lies all about after work. Why learn anything save pressing buttons, pulling switches, fitting nuts and bolts?" Bradbury, Ray Fahrenheit 451 p 55-56
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