I have no way to say this, so I figured I'd say it here.

(this is from my inside voice)

" I HATE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE MY LIFE..EVERYTHING IS GOING WRONG. WHY AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST WANT A FRIEND. JUST ONE GOD, PLEASE, JUST ONE. A TRUE ONE. I WANTED TO GO TO SHEPPARD PRATT BUT I CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FEEL I'M HAVING A PANIC ATTACK.....WHY CAN'T ANYONE UNDERSTAND AND JUST....CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I CAN'T STAND THIS A MOMENT LONGER.............help me"