Whoahhh Firstly slow down.Girl you are far to hard on yourself.You set your expectations so high above the clouds that noone would be acheieve them and noone else is pressuring you but you to meet those expectations.
I bet your really anxious about the stuff with T and you feel you want in black and white maybe her saying"Pinkcorr i'm not angry but you know i dont have those feelings"
Although you would prob try to mind read or think theres something shes not saying to you anyway.
The changes in therapy are a big thing to go through for anyone but the uncertainty of things makes you automatically want reassurance and comfort,as any change would effect anyone like that also.And your T you feel close too so you automatically go to her.
She sounds like she's really proffessional about it.Personally I'd be flattered.

Give yourself a break lovely