Welcome to the forum Metagirl
Be sure to keep posting about how you are doing WHATEVER happens. There's so much support here for you,
Look after yourself with normal eating, dont worry about scales and weighing, and IF (and Im NOT saying its going to happen, because you sound so determined) you do binge or purge, please dont see it as a catastrophe or a failure, but just a lapse to learn from and move on from,

Best Wishes, and like I said, let us know how you are doing,

Sending you lots and lots of encouragement,

Matt C