Hang in there ontar... I don't know your diagnosis but it sounds like you're all over the map. I've been there as well and it's so frustrating and tiring and you just feel like crap. Things will get better... like you probably know, it's a roller coaster and unfortunately right now you're experiencing everything all at once. Keep your head up and take it a day at a time. Welcome to PC, but sorry you're in such a yucky place.