Morning...just got up. Have to put my "I am okay" face on this morning and go into work for a few hours.
However....I am blown away by the replies. I have made an impact on other people for the good? Wow...that makes me smile a little.
I will be honest...the weekend and up till Tues. the 23rd are going to be rough for me. I may very well be in and out of feeling good and feeling very, very dark and low.
I don't know if I should keep posting or if I have said enough.
A good friend of my, Paul, killed himself on Aug 23, 1986. We were 17 years old. And, the pain I feel I know he felt.
And, in a way, I get mad that he got to leave and didn't have to live with his pain and didn't try to deal with it despite how deep his wounds.
That is why I set my "time line". And that is why I picked Aug 23.
Again, let me state...my T is very well aware of all of this.
And we are working together on it all.
So...it is going to be a very emotional few days for me.
And, I don't want to lose my support here by being a burden.

Okay...enough now.
Thanks again to all my repliers...what you are writing to me is making a difference one way or the other...and all for the good!