my guess is that she read it once in session with you, and then wanted to read it again before she saw you next. what we write can have so many layers, that it's impossible sometimes to take it all in in one go.

BUT i do understand your feeling of violation, especially after she promised. i've absolutely made pdoc promise that he will never write down anything re: my trauma stuff in his notes. he respects that. sometimes if we are talking about that stuff, or even just things like how i'm angry at my family (for whatever reason), and he writes something down, he will tell me what he's writing down so that i don't fret.

with all his carefulness that way, when he wrote a referral letter to austin-t he asked mentioned the whole *******ed saga in the letter. and got his receptionst to type it up!! i was in shock. i couldn't believe he actually did that. absolutely boggled the mind.

but i did say i wanted it taken out. i didnt go into the whys etc, just said "i don't want that in there". and so he took it out (or got his secretary to ).

sometimes our Ts just miss the mark completely. sounds like your T did this time. i tell myself it's because they don't sit with this anxiety, this fear, so they don't understand how important promises are sometimes. not that they don't understand, but because they're more relaxed sometimes they just don't see the gravity of it all.

i hope you'll sort this out with your T. leave her a voicemail if it'll help you make sure this gets addressed next week. don't worry if you do yell, she can handle it. and i'm guessing googley needs to work on letting anger out, too, so you can just mark it down as progress .