Farmer-
I was still really ranting and all sensitive and wasn't at a point where I could read anything but complete agreement. So it is okay. I understand what you were saying and thank you for the support. I'm still angry but feeling calmer now.

Deli- I'm shocked at what pdoc did with that letter. Big Oops, especially when he was being so careful.

Moonrise-
Thanks for the support. I think I will be able to get her to 'get' it. I think she wanted to read it between sessions in the first place as her first suggestion on reading it was that she take it with her, it was only here second suggestion when I said no to that originally that she would read it in front of me. She got this serious look on here face. I think it was because I told her it was still going to be hard for me to have her to read it instead of me reading it because I wouldn't know what she was reacting to. So she "put on" a serious face to keep any reactions from being visible while she read it.

I hurt. Under the anger it hurts. I don't know why it hurts. I'm telling myself I don't know why I'm surprised. I feel like I'm always disappointed when I try and trust. I know there are a few times this hasn't happened. But right now it just seems overwhelming. And it hurts. And I don't know exactly why.