Please stop allowing others to define you. You are accountable to yourself. You get to choose your values. You get to choose what is important in your life. You get to choose the path that leads to a life that incorporates your values and what is important to you. You even get to choose what accommodations you will make for your friends.

What is the bases for your perception you are in the way and not good enough? Have you given these bases an objective assessment to determine their viability? What does your therapist say?

You are a valuable person. Tell yourself that. Believe it. Good luck.