I just wanted to let all those who I am helping right now my wings are kinda borken down ok,,
I am trying to keep my flying high above you all a go but I am not sure I can keep it up much longer.

My stress levels wtih my life are getting to me once again. It is not my reltionship this time it is my own insecutries about me and about what I need to do as a mom as a person..

I am having a real tough time right now.
I have been having my "nightmares" again, and I am going to tell my T when I go to him on the 26 of this month I know that is a long ways off for me.. but I have to struggle thourgh the first week of classes and I also have to struggle through some very hard decsions I finally made it into a good group at school I am an SGA Sentor (Student govermtent for thosse who do not know the shorcut)
and I may not be able to stay in this club, because of all the stress of doing all the committes I need too.. and this is tearing me apart to no end.. WHich just bring my depesssion up to the surface even more.. which make me want to curel up and not want to even start school back on monday..

I want to succed in life, but all of these dark thougths keep bringing me down and this time I just can not seem to shake them.. I do not know how to shake them this time.. I really have talked till I am blue in the face with my honey but all he says to do is quit but then I will see myself as a fiauler once agian.. and I can not live with that agiain..
What do I do.. why do i alway mess up in my life why do i feel so worthelss all the time.. Why do i keep scwering others lives up because I am so depessesd all the time..