I hope it's ok to post this here but I pray every night for stength to get through the next day. I also thank God for getting me through today. I have been depressed for a few years now. I have gained about 80lbs but when my 17 year old daughter who has been dealing with my depression for about 4 years needs something or wants to visit a friend, I get my butt out of my bed and take care of her needs.
Try hard to do some of the things your commited to do. I lost all my friends because I let my depression take me over. People don't always understand how exhausting depression is and how the depressed person isn't faking. I bet that you will be happy that you did something and it will give you more strength.