Sorry, forgot to put May trigger in title.....
I'm so tired of all of this. No money, food, can't go anywhere cause no car insurance. I'm in a constant state of anxiety...I have this fear of impending doom hanging over me all the time, like the first time I ended up in the hospital after 9/11. My husband is gone, haven't hear a thing in over 2 weeks. He left, I could never count on him, just like my dad. 38 yrs and it seems like the only thing that has changed is the fact I don't drink and ended the cycle of alcoholism in my side of the family. I never complete anything I start because I have that 'never good enough' syndrome. I feel like I am being punished. I just want to be happy, or at least content and no matter how hard I try I can't. I know there are people worse off than me. I just dont know what else to do anymore.........