How hard to have or be reminded of such important losses on top of your own new health issue. I've been doing a lot of genealogy and studying the lives and health issues of my ancestors and getting death reports of my great grandparents and it has been a little stressful for me too, being of an age to be "next" to go. My older brother and high school friends' mates have developed serious health problems and that makes me look to my own health too.