uoffl You deserve to be in a relationship where you two are the primary persons in your lives. I am not saying you should be getting married, or even living together but it sounds to me like you don't allow yourself to be considered on the level you should be after TWO years of being together. You shouldn't feel guilty for asking to be involved in going to the beach especially if you don't get to see each other often or even talk on the phone. I don't want to read too much into anything but he seems to be controlling the terms of the relationship a bit from the short bit you have shared. I hope you learn that if you aren't truly happy in a relationship that eventually you will become resentful and that can poison a relationship. Good luck.