Meh...

Courts and mental health do not mix well. I'm finding myself an involuntary victim of abuse of the system. Most courts do not even really know what "mental illness" is, but I play along in in the hopes that it will finally end this six month long odyssey of hell my EX thrust upon me with her lies.

Now, I don't mind being court ordered for a psychological exam with MY own T, but what if I'm ordered to one with a different T or Pdoc? I've had nothing but bad experiences with other T's and especially Pdocs... I've been kicked out of one Pdoc's office because I refused to do as he told (take massive quantities of daily Xanax-- not healthy), and I walked out of another one because he was arrogant and haughty, who then proceeded to tell me as I was walking out that I was a "danger" simply because I had been accused of impropriety by the courts. As an FYI, I have a clean record and I was formerly a Military Police soldier in the US Army. I'm not mentally unstable in any significant way, nor am I a danger to myself or anyone else.

Small price to pay to get rid of this issue, but I suppose I am just afraid that the courts will order me to see someone else who will be just as terrible and unprofessional as the last Pdoc that I saw (only that one time--the guy who accused me of being "dangerous" because I hurt his humongous ego by walking out mid-session). I suppose that I am afraid of being labeled with a "mental illness", and by the possible power that they could have over me. For instance, if I happened to get assigned to see a Pdoc who for whatever reason was like the guy who kicked me out of his office because I didn't believe him that I needed massive daily Xanax. Now, with that guy, the worst he could do is kick me out (no loss there!), but with a court-ordered guy it could be much worse and I might get stuck in an involuntary cycle of pill-popping and possible involuntary incarceration for non-compliance.

I'll know more in February, but dang, I sure do have anxiety over this as it is so uncertain. Maybe I have nothing to worry about, but if they order me to see someone else other than my trusted T of 3 years, then my anxiety will skyrocket.

Anyone been through this, and/or have suggestions and insight?
Thanks!

--Sam