It has been a good while since I was a frequent poster here at PC / Depression.
I have been living in my head again, not necessarily a good thing, and wonder how others describe their depressive states...
It has been a while since I sank into my dark place, but I found myself there and now it has been four days. I feel like the line between being okay and being depressed is a very fine line for me. It takes so little to break that barrier. I suppose it is a message to me that I need a meds change (increase.)
I have two descriptions:
- It is like a pond in the winter that has a very thin layer of ice (I live in the Northeastern USA.) Depression is like someone tapping on the ice and breaking through to the water. Then the water (depression) rises to the top and consumes the person. Like falling through the layer of ice into the numbing cold water.
- A black pit...an all consuming pit that is so dark it feels as if one will never see the light of day again. It takes so much energy to grab hold of the rim of the pit, and sometimes hanging on my ones fingernails, until the strength is found to put oneself out.