Ack, ((((((((((((((((((Sam))))))))))))))))))))!!!

That sounds so stressful. I really don't have anything to add to everything Sunny said...she had lots of good advice.

As for ways to relax...it sounds like you find physical activity helpful. Is there anything that you can do in your house? Even a zillion push ups and sit ups would wear you out and burn off some energy. Have you ever tried meditation or guided imagery? Is there anything you like to create? Cooking, art, writing, etc?

I'm so sorry you are going through all of this.