{{{{{{{{{{{{{Candy}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} you don't have to give details. It happened to me, too. You've got to remember that it's NOT happening now! It won't ever happen again because you can now do whatever it takes to stop her! You are NOT insane! If anything, it was her!

The freaking out is par for the course, although we'd give anything to not have to go through it. What my T had me do is imagine myself in a safe place of my own making, where no one or no thing could get in without my making it so. Mine was a beautiful, WHITE bedroom. Everything was white and pure and nothing could touch me there. You can imagine a great big lock on the door or anything that would make you feel safe. Only YOU have any say there. Only YOU can create what you want there. YOU are the only one with power in your safe place.

Try it and see if it works for you. If not, I'll be here if you want to chat or PM.

Be safe!