Im not even sure where to start, ugh.... My sisters husband died 4 years ago. During the last 4 years she has become worse ( she is an alchoholic, BPD, paranoid dillusional etc..) she assaulted 4 police officers went to jail was put on probation and got sober whew! Then she suspected her son was using drugs they got into altercation and CPS took her children away from her when she was doing her best. I have been caring for her sons off and on for the last 3 years. Then in 2009 she made 3 attempts on her life at the second attempt I had her petitioned for court ordered mental health tx. After the 3rd attempt we had to sell her home pay off her bills and continue picking up the peices of her mess. This 3rd attempt has set me off Im so angry with her I have absolutely no empathy for her what so ever. For the most part she never even tried though she does have mental illness she is smart enough to let herself seem and go completely insane so she can shrug her responsibility. My anger really stems from the fact she totally left her kids hangin in greif and loss and all she cares about is herself! I have so much on my plate already being a single mother of 3 myself suffering from depression and rage borderline bipolar and what have you.. My son suffers from severe depression poor self image.. Grrr and I cant fix anyone and nobody will try to help themselves! I just dont know what to do anymore, Im tired of listening to everybody's sadness and problems and I have nobody Im so damn alone! It is frustrating I love all these people so much. Why cant another family member step up to the plate with me why do I have to be the lone rock. I just want to run away and tell em all to figure it out but i know that is not the right thing to do. And I couldnt really do that how selfish of me!!!! Garrr !!! And yes I have a therapist and doc and blah blah blah and I think its a bunch of crap but I still go hoping someday I will get the help we all need!!!! And this is not even the tip of the iceberg!!! Anyway Im sure one of you will read this and relate or have some good words to say. Thanks for listening to my long winded bs!