Welcome to the forums Stupified. You sound like a really amazing person. I know right now you feel down and alone and used, but you are doing an awesome thing to take care of so many children. I am sorry you are having to do so with no support though, I know that must be hard. I was a single mother for about 4 years to just one child and it was nearly the hardest thing I've ever done. I don't even know you and I feel proud to know there is such an incredible woman sharing the earth with me.

I know a lot of times therapy really doesn't seem to do any good (at least that's my experience) but you are putting effort in and I think that makes a big difference.

You will find the greatest, most caring people on earth here at PC. So keep posting and we'll keep listening.