So in a nutshell, I need some support and encouragement, I've suffered with bulimia on and off for the last 20 + years. Started from a violent physical relationship with an old boyfriend, came and went throughout my early 20's and then in my 30's it would raise itself now and again. 2 years ago I suffered a medical mistake and now suffer with Depression, PTSD and Anxiety, for the last two years I have battled with the urge to vomit after eating and now I am very obese and disabled from the medical mistake and now I find when I overeat I get the urge to vomit again. We have a lot of stress with a big lawsuit and I find that I'm not able to resist the urges to do it. T. told me to be extremely careful b/c of the meds I take it can cause a heart attack, yet the drive to do it is so strong. I cannot last a morning without eating and breaking a diet plan, I have no willpower to help myself. I have 3 young boys and I'm frightened for my health and wellbeing. Any positive support would be more than welcomed.